so the title of this note is exactly how I feel. I’ve pushed this dude away who half ass liked me and I was suuper bout him… I saw him yesterday and we were supposed to talk about whatever what we had was.. I guess some things are better left unsaid. I did a great job of cutting him off and being icy.. but I feel like hes trying to be sweet to me to just be in control again. Im so hurt and confused right now. the main reason im hurt is just because I felt used and bc I re-read the text messages that made me wanna cut him off. that shit really really really hurt me and when I re-read them today it kinda just made me wanna cry. so I did. I broke out in tears in class twice. this is sooo stupid. im a thug.
I just feel like what I have in mind for myself isn’t tangible